Fuck Drama and the Bitch it rode in on

Ok, so this post requires a back story. I really only have two friends here. Gus and Melvin. Until recently, I spent most of my weekends with them. They have been there for me when i needed them. I care about them both a lot. Well, a few weeks ago Gus asked me out, I said I didn't want to risk our friendship, and that was the end of it. In the past, Melvin and I have had some brief romantic interludes, but I'm a virgin, and tried to never let things go too far. I love Melvin, but he is not the kind of man that I would marry. We are just really good friends now. Gus has recently aquired a girlfriend by the name of Heidi. They met online, and fell for eachother fast. The first night I met her I was astounded by how similar we are. We look alike, are the same age, have similar home lifes, and just have a lot in common. Well, Heidi decided thaty I was after Gus. So there was drama from the start. Several nights were spent by the otehrs in the house trying to calm her down. Apparently hugging a friend means you are after them. SO she would get pissed off because i would do something that she was sure i did only to piss her off, and then she would freak out. Well I talked to her several times, always telling her the same thing, and always trying to reassure her that I was not, in fact, after Gus. Well, things didn't get any better. gus started being rude to me when she was there, and then later telling me that he just had to act mean so she wouldn't get angry. Some outside sources told Heidi that I liekd Gus, and this set her off. She freaked out yet again, and yet again, Gus calmed her down. Well, about three weeks ago Heidi got drunk with Melvin's gf and she proceeded to tell drunk belidgerant Heidi that I am sleeping with Gus. Heidi tears upstairs and wakes Gus up screaming and crying. She is convinced that he has been cheating on her with me. So I im Gus that day, just kind of checking on him and what not, and I get this load of crap dumped on me. And he tells me about how he and Melvin almost got in a fight because aparantly he was the one who told his chick the crap that she told Heidi. So I decide it would be best if I dont see them for awhile. It really hurts to be told by your friends that they dont want you around because the girlfriend is more important that you. So I was upset. I sent Heidi a message, just saying that I wouldn't be around and tht it took me losing my friends, but now she wouldn't have to worry. (I have since removed my conversation with Gus, He is my friend, and things said between friends should remain private).So I thought that was the end of the drama and that I could just move on. Wellso i sent a message to Heidi and then we have been messaging back and forth, so she's pretty much a crazy psycho bitch.
Jerra: Heidi, this is Jerra, I know you hate me...trust me, I know...and I know you want nothing to do with me, but this is really important ok...so when you're on can you please let me know. I really need to talk to you.
Jerra: Well, i guess i can just tell you here
Jerra: I talked to Gus tonight, and he told me about all the crap that has been happening, and how you think that I'm after him, or that there was something between us. I know you probably don't believe me, but there never was. I love Gus as a friend, and nothing more. I have been so happy lately to see him with you and see that he is happy. You are really good for him. Melvin has caused a lot of drama, whether on purpose or by accident idk, by bringing me around. I have tried my best to talk to you and let you know the situation. I even tried to help you that night at Applebees to keep you out of trouble. You seem to believe everyone but me, and that's ok. I just want you to know that because of you I won't be seeing Melvin or Gus anymore. They both insisted that it's not nessicary, but I think it is best. You won ok. I was never after him. I care too much about him to see him go through crap every time i'm there. So I gave up those people I care about most, people that I consider family so that you will feel assured that he and I have nothing between us. It hurts a lot to have to just say goodbye to the people who have been there for me for a year, but I don't think that there is any other way. I wish you all luck, and I hope that now you won't worry anymore. I'm sorry if anything I did or said made you think i was after him. You don't have to write me back, but I just want you to know that I am not going to be there or talk to them anymore.

Heidi: Jerra?
Heidi: I just got your messages...i am never online except when i am at gus' so thats why it has taken so long for me to respond to your messages. I never meant to freak out about you being around and i even tried--several times--not to. It is just that the first night i met you you sat there and told me how gus and recently expressed his undying love for you and it turns out it wasnt true...i dont understand that. Gus told me that when you guys were talking he said that he didnt want you to come over so what do you mean they insisted it wasnt necessary? I was told what had to be happening if you were to come over and i mean i had no choice but to deal if those circumstances were to be in effect. The reason you and Gus had a talk the other night was because crystal and i had been drinking and she told me that melvin had to take you home that morning. Well melvin and gus were asleep so she was telling me that melvin said he'd never cheat on her and stuff so i was like well i left last night at 1:00 am so i dont know jerra was here that early i the morning. If you would like to tell me that would be wonderful...gus told me he didnt know but i had gone upstairs and tried to wake him up to ask him and hwen he didnt wake up..me in my drunken state i ripped the sheets off and was asking him then. That started shit with melvin and he went down stairs and started yelling at melvin b/c he is giving crystal a story and he is giving me a story. Gus didnt want to be used as melvins scapegoat and thats why there was so much drama then opposed to any other time. Jerra i wanted to get along I really did and we have SOOO much in common. we even have similarities in appearance (few i guess but there are some lol FAT CHICKS!! lol) im kidding but i think that if we would have met under any other circumstances that we would have been best friends. We have similar family lives and everything. i am just a very jealous girl i ahve a trust issue and it is something i am working on...it is a downfall that i have. I am sorry that i have made it seem as though i hate you and i even have said it a few times but i don think i could ever really say it with conviction because i dont even know you and i suppose that is my fault. Im sorry that i pushed gus to do what he did the other night and i guess that is the bad part of a girlfriends influence on her boyfriend. The reason he did it tho was b/c it started to affect him directly. I wasnt informed that you were here that night which is probably another reason why i flipped, but the reason i wasnt otld is so that i wouldnt flip. b/c it was a dead issue. I hold a grudge against you for previous things and htat is why i flip. First, the whold first night i met you thing..second, when we were both here and gus walked in and you jumped in front of me so i couldnt go give him a hug when he got home from work..like you just HAD to jump in front of me--i love him and it hurts me when things like that happen, third, i was relayed a message that you told kim and nichole that you liked gus and that i was right. I asked nichole and she said it was what she had heard and that she could tell ti wasnt like you told her. I later found out that Kim was the instigator and that she likes to start drama. I dont know her and the only other time i ahve ever been around her was applebees i was jsut told by several ppl that she is an instigator of drama and so i am sorry for freaking out about that one...that was probably the one that really got me going. I think that maybe you and i just need to talk about this and figure it all out...i would love it if we would have become friends and everyhting b/c we are the same age and everything and we have so much in common. I guess i just am one of those ppl who need constant reassurance and everything. i know gus loves me he tels me constantly...he asks me to marry him all the time and i am supposed to move in as soon as i can...probably in a few months...the way he holds me and
Jerra: Well, it just seems to me like there is a whole lot of drama over nothing. That first night you were there, what i said to you was that gus had asked me out and i had said no....my purpose was to reassure you. I don't like Gus like that, and frankly bnever could. I love Gus like a brother, and that's all. When he and I talked the other night what he said was that he couldn't ask me not to come over, it was me who said that I would stop. I understand you being jealous, but you really never had anything to worry about with me. Melvin tells a lot of poeple a lot of stories. Keep in mind that pretty much nething he tells Krystal is a lie, and anything you hear from Kim is tainted. DOes it make any sense at all for me to try so hard to get a long with someone's girlfriend if I was in love with them...no. I would never do anything to try to take gus away from you. He is happy and you are good for him. I have my own life and plans, and none of them involve Gus. I think it would be good for the two of us to talk, but I won't be telling you anything I haven't already. I am sorry things have gone the way they have, and it took me losing my friends for you to feel better, but thts what it took. So, I'm just gonna stay outta the drama, becuase it really doenst have anything to do with me. Ya'll need to figure this shit out for your own sake. All I can say is that I have at this point done everything in my power to show you that my intentions are not to get Gus, and frankly at this point I don't even want to see him...so ya know. Well, i hope everything is going well for you, and that
the guys are all doing ok, tell nicole i said hi, and i guess if the guys ask tell them i said hi.
Heidi: Well Jerra i tried to be nice in the last messages that i sent! Why the hell are you flipping out? Its good that you dont want to see Gus because he probably doesnt want to see your manish ass anyways. Ill tell N-I-C-H-O-L-E that you said hi, ill tell the guys too although they wont ask about you. lol!!! who would? Now that you are gone all of the drama IS sorted out now that your drama causing ass is gone..been nice knowing ya. Oh and by the way next time you are gonna spread your legs make sure you dont ahve to lie to yourself and everyone else to make yourself feel better.
Jerra: wow, not sure what thts all about
Heidi: you being a douche thats what thats about
Jerra: i dont get why you're so angry
Heidi: Jerra it isnt that im angry...you jsut wont pick a mood...one minute you are nice and the next you are sending me shitty messages when i am trying to be nice
Jerra: and the only reason im upset is because i'm being accused of something i didnt do
Heidi: and what is that?
Jerra: what did i say that was shitty?
Jerra: im really sorry ok
Heidi: it took me losing all of my friends blah blah blah..you need to get your drama shit sorted out....
Jerra: this has just been hard on me
Heidi: like it is all my fault
Heidi: im not the only one who doesnt like you
Jerra: its not all your fault
Jerra: who else doesnt like me
Jerra: i didnt know i was such a neusance thats all
Heidi: why do you have to lie to everyone?
Jerra: what are you talking about?
Jerra: lie about what?
Heidi: Melvin?
Heidi: ringing any bells
Jerra: what about melvin?
Heidi: you fucked him and told everyone you didnt...
Heidi: what the hell
Jerra: i never fucked him
Jerra: whatever
Jerra: im not tryin to lie to anyone
Jerra: shit, everyone knew
Heidi: too much..no need for details imagining you having sex is simply nauseating
Heidi: yes everyone did but you still felt the need to lie
Heidi: real cool
Jerra: i didnt lie
Jerra: im sorry you or anyone else thinks i did
Heidi: oh i know poor innocent little jerra
Heidi: dont tell kim things you dont want others finding out
Jerra: like what?
Heidi: so when you like someone elses b/f then you really shouldnt advertise it
Jerra: i really dont like gus
Jerra: shit, i have a man
Heidi: why must you say you did/ do?
Heidi: for fun
Jerra: what?
Heidi: dont tell kim u want gus if in fact you dont
Jerra: i have never said i like gus
Heidi: ohhh ok i guess gus and i made it up
Jerra: idk
Jerra: i mean gus and melvin are my only friends here
Jerra: so i care about them a lot, but i dont like gus as anything more than a friend
Heidi: whatever then why is it you ahve to be all over him all the time and smile at him all the time and just make it look like you are in love with him
Heidi: Jerra dont fake anyone you dont have a man
Jerra: i smile at everyone, and i dont even hardly talk to him, let alone be all over him
Heidi: y must you lie
Heidi: if u have a mna then y arent you ever with him instead of MY boyfriend
Heidi:????????????
Jerra: yeah, i do, have had several for quite some time...i date, not like im sitting around waiting for gus or melvin
Jerra: because, i have a life outside of my relationship
Heidi: you date huh well then y in the HELL have you been over here every fucking friday and saturday that i have been here until recently
Heidi: yes jerra i too have a life outside of mine but being in a relationship requires seeing each other
Jerra: because my friends are important, i go on dates thursday nights usually cuz i dont have fri school
Heidi: u are SO weird
Heidi: it kills me
Jerra: well not much i can do about that
Heidi: so u see your b/f on thurs. what a helathy relationship
Heidi: and you find it necessary to see my b/f every other second
Jerra: and it doesnt matter what i say, you dont believe anything i say neways
Heidi: no i dont b/c u constantly lie and ppl usually dont believe pathological liars
Jerra: heidi, i just dont understand why you think im after him
Heidi: b/c u ARE
Jerra: i havent lied to you or neone else
Jerra: and im not
Heidi: yes u are!!
Jerra: shit, i swear on my mother's life that i have not ever been, and never will be after gus
Jerra: i cant do anything else to show you that
Jerra: you seem to want to believe it, and its just not true
Heidi: its not that i want to belive that a man is after my b/f!! it is the sheer fact that you are and that you get your kicks off of trying to piss me off
Heidi: you did all of that shit just to piss me off
Heidi: hugged him all the time smiled at him and flirted with him..uh! nauseating
Heidi: leave him alone thats all i aksed you but you couldnt even do that!
Jerra: heidi, i tried to get along with you, and ive never done nething to piss you off
Jerra: i have left him alone
Jerra:): what are you talking about
Jerra: i dont even talk to him when im there
Jerra: like at all
Jerra: i say hi
Jerra: thts it
Jerra: i dont flirt with him, i smile at my friends, and im nice to them, its not that i am flirting
Jerra: i smiled at you, does that mean you think im after you
Jerra: i hugged you?
Jerra: i mean, come one, be logical
Heidi: what the hell ever you are all over him you rub his head when you walk by and jump up to hug him and i mean you jsut TRY to make me mad..if it wouldnt have been for melvin holding me back all the time i would have punched you. OYu should consider yourself lucky Jerra i could have seriously hurt you.
Jerra: if i was just after gus why would i care what you thought, i mean wouldnt i try some shit to get him
Heidi: no b/c u look at me and then you look in the mirror and say whats the point in trying
Heidi: LOL i crack myself up
Heidi: i love gus and he loves me thats why you wouldnt try anything b/c u know it wouldnt work
Heidi: b/c we are in love with each other
Jerra: no, because i dont want him
Jerra: i dont
Jerra: i never have
Jerra: i cant make that any more clear
Jerra: ive been around for a year, dont you think if i wanted him i would have made a move?
Jerra: something?
Heidi: i smile and am nice to my friends too but when they have g/fs and they are around i am very nice to their g/f's and i try to make it seem that i not after them
Heidi: u TRY to piss me off
Jerra: i do not
Jerra: i am nice to you
Jerra: i dont try to piss you off
Heidi: no i mean but oyu make me think you want him
Jerra: after you told me at applebees tht things like me huggin him bothered you, i stopped
Jerra: i stopped talkin to him pretty much at all
Jerra: i dont amke you think anything
Jerra: i try my best to stay away from him
Heidi: YES U SURE AS HELL TRY
Heidi: H/O
Jerra: but you think every thing i do is to piss you off or make you think i want him
Jerra: i dont want to piss you off, i wanted to be friends, i mean i still dont understand what this is all about...i mean i hugged him once in front of you, you said it bothered you, i stopped.,..everything i do makes you mad, makes you think i want him,...i really dont
Heidi: NO NOT EVERYTHING JUST THE LYING AND TOUCHING AND EVERYTHING ASSOCIATED TO HITTING ON MY BOYFRIEND
Heidi: sorry for the caps
Jerra: i havent lied to you
Jerra: i really havent
Jerra: i have no reason to
Heidi: you have lied to everyone
Jerra: about what?
Jerra: melvin?
Heidi: yes and so many other things...i have to go Gus' laundry is done i need to fold it...im too busy for this
So after the last convo I called Gus, and i was like just tell her to leave me alone, well that didn't make her too happy. About an hour after I called him she Ims me again.
Heidi: Wanna whine to me instead?
Jerra: nope
Heidi: Come on Jerra talk to me...if you have so much to say and you are so devastated tell me why you are crying your eyes out
Jerra: you just left, and if you're not gonna listen to me, and sit here and insult me, im not doin it
Jerra: because, you're mean to me with no reason
Jerra: insult me
Jerra: and then dont listen to me
Heidi: i had to leave the damn oven was going off...want me to burn down the god damn house bitch
Jerra: no
Jerra: you said it was laundry
Heidi: u deserve to be insulted and listen up whore if u insult me you are god damn right im gonna do it back
Jerra: i havent insulted you
Heidi:: it was laundry...oven..EVERYTHING at once i was going bananas
Heidi: all the alarms at once!!!
Jerra: lol
Heidi: YES U DID!!!
Jerra: you didnt say that
Heidi: u suck jerra
Jerra: when?
Heidi: u SUCK
Heidi: not only melvin either
Heidi: lol i crack myself up
Jerra: when did i insult you?
Heidi: and remember when i told u that u dont ever leave gus alone..then u call him after u tell em you dont talk to him...PATHOLOGICAL LIAR
Jerra: i dont talk to him, had to look the damn number up
Heidi: remember your message earlier beside your screen name..i hope it happens u fucking whore
Jerra: hope what happens?
Heidi: y call him in the first place...call your own god damn boyfriend since you ahve so fucking many of them slut
Jerra: heidi, I'm sorry we got to this point, I am, and I haven't done nething tp piss you off, so you can be angry, adn you can be mean, i just dont care nemore
Heidi: ya know what there are more important things going on right now just know u fucking suck call me if u wanna fight...u have his cell number now so just call it and cuss me out if u are gonna do it
Jerra: and i'm sorry but i haven't ever slept with anyone
Heidi: just know u fucking suck and i hate you
Jerra: i know
Heidi: HA HA HA HA HA thats hilarious
Heidi:: u lying ass whore
Jerra: you done yet?
Heidi: just leave me AND gus alone...
Jerra: gus is my friend
Jerra: i'll leave you alone
Jerra: and you with gus alone
Jerra: and gus alone
Jerra: but not because you say so
Jerra: I was the one who said i wouldn't come over anymore
Heidi: fuck off u lying ass pretend-to-be-catholic slut bag
Heidi: and everyone was so god damn happy i bet
Jerra: he said he "couldn't tell me not to come over nemore"
Heidi: im going BYE
Jerra: i said i wouldnt
Jerra: bye heidi
Heidi: b/c u are fucking melvin not b/c he likes your dumb manish ass
Heidi: fuck off whore go cry bitch i ahte you
So, at this point, I'm posting for a little reassurance, that it is in fact she who is crazy. I also hope that maybe Gus or Melvin will see this and see what is going on and that I'm not doing anything to being this uppon myself. So there is my drama...it sucks.