Unforseen Blessings

Things really do all work together for good. I have always been told that, and until now, never had any solid evidance. Moving here was the last thing on Earth that I would ever to do. I would never have want wanted to leave my school, friends, family...my life. I was so well-established back home, and fairly popular if I do say so myself. I have friends there that love and care for me, and who miss me terribly. The thing is, when it comes down to it, we had no choice but to move here. It was best for the family, so I did it, no questions asked (but a lot of tears). At first, I was scared. I was scared for my family and for myself. When we got here, I was mad. I tried to place blame where none was due. The only one to blame was far away now. I refused to accept that things were the way they were and there was nothing I could do. then, I was depressed. For weeks I was depressed and sad. It hit me hard, the reality of what had happened. I finally realized that I couldn't do anything, that I was completely helpless in it all. I stopped praying (for those of you who don't know, my faith is the most important thing in my life...Also, there is a line in the bible about those who lead others astray, Dan, maybe you should read that, give you a little heads up before you get there). Obviously I still have some anger, I haven't had a chance for closure yet. You know in the movies, things are always better after the "hero" confronts the villian. Anyways, thats not the point. I gave up completely, and jsut died inside. I went through the motions of living without feeling alive. I did what I loved, and didn't enjoy it. i couldn't see all the blessings surrounding me on all sides. Now, after weeks and weeks, I can see the light. I can see how this is all working out for good. I have so many fantastic oppertunities and gifts that until now, were unseen. I have my family, all alive and doing well. My brothers are doing good in school, and even joined up a basketball team. my mom has a new job, and a new life, where no one knows about that man. She, we get to start over. She has found a man who loves and adores her. He is probably the man she has always been looking for. He has gotten a family, that until recently, was unimaginalble for him. he has gotten a new life, with kids that love him and want to be around him ALL THE TIME. His house, is now a home, not only for him, but for me and my family. He now has not one, but two girls with that maternal instinct, worrying about him ALL THE TIME. ME, what has this brought me. A chance to pursue a dream, really hot southern boys from Savanah...haha, just kidding. I get to go to beauty school, something I have always wanted to do. I get to finally pass Algebra II, which is a big deal. I get to learn new stuff, and a new perspective. I get another set of grandparent to fawn all over me. I get a friend, who knows where I'm coming from, and how to put me at ease. Most of all, I get back what I once had. Joy. Joy in every day, for no reason but that it is. Thank God for all these fantastic and wonderful things.