Thank God

You know I have learned from expieriance that things can ALWAYS get worse. Even when you think you are at the bottom and can't fall any lower, you find that someone has dug a whole under your feet and you fall again. So, I know to appreiciate when things don't get worse. I am so thankful that things are getting better. Our little faux family is nice. There is some stability in knowing there is going to be someone waiting for you when you get home. Thing before we moved were moving so fast we hardly spoke, and when we did it was depressing. My mom wasn't happy, and worring about someone killing you tends to stress a person out. Despite her attempts to appear unshaken by the Ogre, I knew how scared she was of him. When we got here all that crap was lifted from us. We all began to sleep again, but not without scars from that horrible man. My brothers have woken up several nights screaming because they had a nightmare that the Ogre came to get us. How sad is that, a 9yr old and a 13yr old worrried about being killed. My Mom is much happier. She's herself again. This house feels like home and I gather that JJ feels the same. I know this isn't a permenant solution, but it's one I like. I like having JJ around. It's so funny because things here are just falling into place without much effort at all. I got into Beauty School. For those of you who don't know, I have a passion for all things beauty related. i love to make people beautiful and feel good about themselves. I'm still at that point where I don't know what I want to do when I grow up, but I would love to have a salon and my own line of cosmetics. I am one who belives that when you find something you love, you've gotta hold on to it with all your strength. This is something that I truely love, and would do all my life fro no pay at all. Other than needing new shoes because the ones I have are ripping the flesh from my ankles from all the walking, it has been a great expieriance thus far. So, the point being; when you feel the need to cry out "Eli, Eli Yabe Sabata me?" " My God, My God why have you forsaken me?" , remember that things can always get worse, and pick yourself up. God won't do everything for you, you have to wants things to improve.