Not sure what to call this

I wrote this awhile back and saved it in my draft folder, just figured I'd post it now - Well, there are times when I don't think about how things are going to effect other people. I try my best not to be self-centered, but it happens. I was recently hurt by someone I care about. I look up to him and respect him greatly. When I overheard a conversation between him and my Mom, I couldn't believe what I heard. He was telling her that he didn't think that she could trust or depend on me. That because I sometimes neglect my small chores at the house, that she couldn't trust me to do bigger things. Well, I'm not sure where he was the past 17 years, but I know that I've been here. I know that I've been there for my Mom 100% since I was old enough to help. I have helped with my brothers when there wasn't a man around. I have done my best not to do stupid stuff and to listen to my her so she didn't have to worry about me so much. I have helped her put the pieces back together after the other men left. I have watched my brothers when she just needed to get away, or see her friends. I gave up much of my childhood to grow up fast and be there for her. I am very proud that I have been there for my mom. Now, amazingly, after leaving all my friends and family, having someone want to kill me, and finding out my Grandpa is sick...I've been having a little trouble. I have been copping as best I can and trying not to cause trouble. I'm not sure what he was thinking when he said that, but if it matters at all, I have lost much of my respect for him. He lovesa my mom and she loves him, and he plans to be around awhile, so i am thankful for that. Well, I'm done ranting now

Sometimes

Sometimes when you need someone the most they need to be left alone. Sometimes you think you are doing what is right, when in reality you are screwing things up even more. Sometimes you just need to cry, to yell, and to scream to make your heart stop hurting. Sometimes you need to be dramatic. Sometimes you need to lose all hope, so that when you find it again, you appreciate it so much more. Sometimes you need to have your heart broken, so you can recognize true love when it comes along. Sometimes we need everyone and no one all at the same time. Sometimes the problem is not everyone else, but us. Sometimes scars go so deep you can't see them or remember where they came from, but only feel the pain in familiar words. Sometimes we just need to be sad to feel happy. Sometimes we need to be stupid, and irresponsible, and inconsiderate. I need to learn a lot of things still. I know I don't know near as much as I think I do. I know that the world will keep spinning even if I have a bad day. I know that I need those close to me to hold on, and stay with me, even when I push them away. I know that I have hurt the one's I love through my own selfishness, and yet I know they still love me. I know that there are a lot more apologies to be made than I can ever make, But know that I have already been forgiven. In this life, very few things are constant, so you have to hold on to the good things and never let go.