Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Dear Boy

This is an idea I stole from the "Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul" book...it was cute...so I wrote my own.
Dear Boy,

I don’t know who you are, when or where we will meet, but I hope it is soon. I pray that when we meet and fall in love, you will love me because I am Jerra, and not hope for someone thinner or prettier. I hope you won’t compare me to girls who may have brighter smiles, longer legs, or nicer bodies. I hope that you will make me laugh, take care of me when I get sick, hold me when I’m sad, kiss me when you want to and you’re nervous. I hope you’ll sing to me even though you don’t know how, chase me even though you know I’m yours, want me around all the time even though you know we both have lives to lead, and dance with me even though you don’t like to. I hope that you will do these things not because you think I expect you to, but because you know that I want you to and you will enjoy them just because we are together.
I hope you will remember that I prefer white roses to red, and that my favorite color is purple. I hope you remember that my eyes aren’t blue, but green with gold and navy flecks. I hope you know that I like all kinds of music, but mostly the songs that make me cry with their sincerity, even when they’re country. I hope you know that I will think of you all the time, even when we are apart, and especially when we are together. I hope you know that I will do anything for you, even if it means sewing a rip in your jeans, feeding your dog that insists on slobbering all over me every time I see him, or watching a movie that’s about some sport, or a war. I want you to know everything about me, even those things that I try to hide. I hope that you love me even though I’m not perfect, and you love my imperfections because they are a part of me. I hope you want me to meet your family because you think I’m fantastic and you talk about me all the time. I hope that you never mention your ex-girlfriend because you never think about her when you’re with me, unless it is to say how much happier you are with me. I hope you know that your kiss makes everything ok Most of all I hope you know that anything I ask of you I will do the same for you and that I will love you even when I’m angry with you.
Please know that I may be too shy to kiss you first, and don’t be afraid to kiss me, I won’t slap you or push you away. Please don’t worry about how well you kiss; your kisses will be perfect. Please don’t stress about where to take me on a date, because it doesn’t matter as long as I’m with you. Please know that I love to watch sports with you, and play sports with you, and sometimes I just want to watch you play. Please know that you will catch me late at night awake just watching you breathe because I don’t want to miss a thing. Please know that I don’t expect you to be perfect, do everything right, or read my mind. Please know that I love everything about you because it makes you who you are.
If I cry, please know it isn’t because of you, just hold me close, and I’ll heal quickly. And, if it is because of you, know that I’ll be okay, and I’ll heal just the same. Please know that some days I just need to cry and be sad, and others I need to be angry and vent to you. Know that I don’t expect you to make it better, I just want you to listen and be there to support and comfort me. Please know that when I get angry I say stupid things, that may hurt you, and even thought I never want to hurt you I will say them. Please know that when I am hurt by something you do, I will tell you I’m okay, even though inside I’m being torn apart. Know that I will tell you if I need to talk, but that you aren’t supposed to talk, just listen. Know that everything you say and do, I remember. Know that what you call baggage, I call history, and all of yours I accept and respect, and all of mine is not important. Know that I will always be there for you; all you need to do is ask.
Know that if we decide to break up, that I may be bitter at first, but I do want you as a friend. Know that if I say I’m not ready for a serious relationship, I mean it, Know that I will never cheat on you or be unfaithful in any way. If you’ll let me I’ll remember that you have feelings too, even if you’ll never admit it. Please tell me if anything I do ever bothers you, or just doesn’t sit right. I want you to always be honest with me, because I will always be honest with you. If I have a bad day, I hope you will shower me with love and assurance.
I hope that you don’t think I’m asking too much of you. I hope you know I’m not putting you up on a pedestal you can never reach. I hope you know that I’m a little nervous and scared too. I wish I could tell you when we will meet, and if we’ll be together forever, but every relationship is like a game of cards, and…sigh…I’ve never been good at cards. All I can tell you is that someday we will find each other and we will love each other deeply and passionately. I hope you know that every choice you ever made, every thing that ever happened to you, every girl you ever loved, and every time your heart got broken, it was leading you closer to me, and making you the person I would fall in love with.
Baby, I’m waiting for you. I’m being the best I can and doing all I can to be the one you will fall in love with. I am trying my best to be patient, because I know you are out there waiting too. I pray that we will meet soon, and we can start our lives together, but even if we don’t meet for years, know that there is one person in this world who will love you for who you are, never try to change you, do everything for you that she can, and who is praying that your path crosses hers very soon.

Always and Sincerely Yours,
Jerra

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